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Monday again... sick!!!

Mon, 17 Apr 2006 16:22:36 GMT

Hi there,
Well its monday again... again weekend came and went super super fast like always! Its sick... i feel like theres so much i need to do and no time to do it. It sucks and then here come the 5 hellish work days again... sick. 6 weeks till I get a week off... 5 more weeks of class... 7 weeks till my b-day.... ahhhhhh i want the next 5 weeks at least to go super fast and then then after that it can be slow!! Which im sure it wont. This weekend was ok at points and shitty at others... well the shitty point was when my family decided to shit on me... i was so pissed... just sat in the house and balled... my dads at least decent to come in and talk to me. I was pissed at zach too cuz he just fuckin sat out there with them... didnt come in to talk to me. But i think he felt bad later just cuz of the way he acted... i think he was trying to get on the fams good side... well hes always been there.. just stay there. We went and ate at diamond daves during the day and walked to the light house in sheboygan. It was nice. Sunday was a lame day as usual. I went and got spark plugs for my car with bec... then later we watched a movie. It was a quiet weekend i guess you could say. Im so sick of working. I just need time off.
I dunno I feel as if i disappoint everyone these days. I dont try to, but thats the feeling i get from almost everyone. Especially saturday when my own family was all shiting on me. I dont know what to do to make people happy with me... I cant be with everyone all the time... fuck... I cant be with hardly n e these days... my schedule sucks bad!! I hate it so much!! I want a new job really bad but then again... its like i am getting 2 weeks paid vacation in july and i know what im doing there... starting a new job always sucks... meeting new people... not knowing n e thing.. I mean after a while its nice but the beginning sucks... i dunno if i feel like going through that. I guess ill just go with the flow for now.
Its also bothering me that I dont know hardly no one zach does... I mean i met his bro once... thats it. I mean it will be different once im 21 and we can go out with people but ive told him i feel like hes embarrassed of me... which he tells me all the time differently. I was suppose to meet his parents a couple weekends ago but his dad was in the hospital then. Who the hell knows when that will happen. He dont want me over there cuz hes embarrassed of how his parents keep the house... gimme a fuckin break. Like im gonna judge on how they keep the house. I could care less. That shit dont mattter to me. And ive told him that so many times. I think hes slowly coming to... just takes time i guess... and ill let him have that time. Not gonna push n e thing. I cant believe that ween bought me an ipod. I always wanted one but gave up on it cuz i didnt wanna buy one since i got my camera.
Oh and also i thought it was so stupid how things were closed for easter. Yea its a holiday but its not fuckin christmas... seriously. Made me so pissed. Even fuckin walmart is closed... i guess.. dumb fuckers...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh i cant wait till summer... woot woot... even tho work will be hot as hell.. friday it was...sick! Well im done bitching for now.. till next time yall...

people suck!

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 16:32:30 GMT

So basically latley im really sick of people... it just sucks how people are these days. Seriously... hardly no one is understanding... you can't trust n e one. People dont take the time to look at how life is for others. Judge first. wtf is wrong with people. Some people have probably been wondering where I have been. Well honestly im trying to stay away from people lately... Im just so fed up with everything. I feel like I should surround myself with the people that I feel love me and actually wanna be with me. And thats not too many people these days. Plus life calls lately. Theres just so much going on. And then with my purse being stolen ive had to deal with so much shit with that its not even funny. Very stressful actually. And now I think im getting sick again. Awesome! Does not get much better.Im trying to look at the plus side of things... but sometimes I feel there is no plus side. Well this upcoming weekend should be fun. Dawns having a b-day party for Dave and shes throwing in a surprise sex toy party... woot woot... see thats pretty fuckin sad when you can have more fun with ur parents friends rather than ur own. Feel more wanted by ur fuckin parents friends... whatever i guess... its somebody. And they understand shit too... i guess its the age... lol No one really comes on here n e more so im just letting out my frustrations.
I cant wait till this summer when I can go out and party and meet new people and meet more of zachs friends. Everyone at work sucks too... i dont feel comfortable there at all n e more.. always feel like something is gonna get taken or someone is outside fucking with my car... it sucks.
I wish somedays... that I could just get outta here... move away... start new... but then other days im like ... wtf am i thinking... everyone i love is here. I dunno things just have been weird lately. I guess I dont know how to deal with it sometimes. So I guess ive been living in my own little world till I feel its save to come out again... sounds weird but its true. My family and a few others is what makes me feel safe and happy at the moment and i dont really know why. Well n e way... i gotta go get ready or do something at least... bye

im back... woot woot!

Wed, 15 Mar 2006 16:24:21 GMT

Well the comp was getting fixed for like the last month... but now its back!! woot woot!! I dont even remember the last time i wrote in here.
Well im still waiting for it to be may... I cant fuckin wait n e more!! seriously!
It sucks too cuz i have not really hung out with friends a whole lot lately... well niki a tiny bit but i dunno what to think about her n e more. I think were just different and continuing to get more different.
And I dont get to see zach much during the week so ive been with him on the weekends quite abit. I do miss hanging out with my kewl friends... leslie and terry. and erica too. and who ever else. But i dunno im in some wierd stage right now where i miss zach all the time. Ive been really emotional too lately. Which is super annoying. Its like I cant control it. I dunno its like... i love him so much... ive never had a relationship with n e more like this and i dont really know what to do with myself sometimes. And I can see myself with him for a long time. Ive never had that b4 ... ever. And its kinda nice for once. I really love the relationship status that im in right now. I think its cuz i was single basically forever. Yea there were the few guys but that was shit. This is real and i love it! I never thought id find n e one that loved me for just the way I am! Ok im done... lol no one wants to hear this shit.
N e way I have another test on friday... the last one i did rather well on... 85 on the written and 92 on the lab... it was funny cuz most of the class did super shitty on the lab. Im also calling in on Friday to go to ice bowling and see oil can! Its gonna be great! I cant wait!But yea im done here for now! tyll

ugggg im dying....

Thu, 16 Feb 2006 05:41:00 GMT

So i went to the dr this morning and i have a really bad sinus infection and i have to be on antibiotics for the next 2 weeks. I cant breath right now and i have this continuous cough that just wont go away and whenever i have to cough it makes my head hurt worse that it already does and my ears... omg this sucks so bad. I didnt go to work today either... and i also wont be going tomarrow. I have to study for my sick test in antomy on fri morning. Gross! I was gonna call in tomarrow n e way. I the dr an excuse for today and tomarrow n e way which is kewl. I even told the fucker i was gonna call in tomarrow to study for a test so it put it on there... woot woot. omg i wish i could breath through my nose. It sucks so damn bad. OH and what is with everyone watching fuckin saw 2 today. Gross ... seriously. I dont get it. N e way I think bed is calling my name. I head kills so bad. grrrrrrr bye yall

Its only wed... gross....

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 18:50:53 GMT

Hi, Well its Wednesday... and i cant wait for this week to be over. But its gonna end with that gross class. Which i have to study for tonight since Zach is gone up north for the night and im super depressed about since i cant even talk to him :( and im used to it... damn roaming... ruins lives. I went to the y yesterday and today and hopefully tomarrow. Im always so lazy when i get up but so happy when i go. I just try to think about summer being right under our noses. Sunday night i hung out with leslie and we went to Target.... omg they have so much cute shit but i dont wanna buy stuff now cuz i HOPE i can lose some flab. Im not talking stick or whatever... like ill ever be that way as it is... just wanna be a little less flabby and more comfy with myself. Not feel like I always need to be covering myself.I just wanna worry about having fun!!!! I hope this summer rocks! Acutally I know it will cuz ill be sure it does! Grrrrr I wanna go lay in bed and wine for the rest of the night... its period time and im just lazy and full of cramps. Last thing I feel like doing is going to work with all those fuckers. Ill prolly get a shit hole of a job too. Makes things all the better. Ahhhhh I cant wait till this weekend... a whole herd of us are going bowling at willys in port. It should be super fun cuz i know a decent group of people are going!! woot woot!! Which is another reason that this week is taking forever!! Well i gotta get ready for the sick hole pretty soon and feed my large self. ta ta yall

Ahhhhhhhhh!!!

Wed, 01 Feb 2006 17:27:27 GMT

Seriously life is so hard right now!! I feel like I have no time to think!! This class is gonna kill me... seriously! I have work... and then i wanna work out in the morning and then i wanna hang out with zach at night. But then I gotta find time to fuckin study for this hard ass class!!! I NEED to pass it!! And its hard as fuck!! Well I was gonna go to the y this morning but niki never called me and I had shit to do so i was just trying to study and read but its not working so well so im sitting my ass here for a little while. Me and Zach are not doing n e thing tonight either so I can do some shit... or try... I have to tho. I have a fuckin serious sinus headache right now and its not working for me. Making me wanna vom all over. Grrrrr I need a vacation from work! I wish I had one week day off till this class is over!! Just one. But I need my money too. I can tell these next couple months are gonna be stressful fuckers. Grrr and I wanna lose weight by summer so bad and if im only going to the y 2 days a week thats not gonna help too much. I wanna go like at least 3 or 4. Damn it!!
And weekends i wanna do shit and see people... I usually only get to see zach like 2 or 3 days a week but this one I got to see him the last 5 days ... and its weird cuz Ive seen him so much yet I still miss him like crazy... even these 2 days I wont see him makes me crazy! I dunno what my deal is.... but yea im hungary so check yall

I HATE MONDAYS!!

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 18:25:36 GMT

GRRRRRRR I hate that its monday already!! Weekends go too damn fast!! I hate it! But I did have a really good weekend! On saturday I helped my mom out with stuff around here for a while. Then me and zach went to Appleton to bop around and go shopping even tho we did not buy n e thing it was still fun. And then we came back here and went down to the bar with mom and dad, dave, and johnny. It was super fun! Dad and zach played pool and we got some drinks. It was just a really good time. Then zach stayed here and yesterday he went home and we did our own things for a while and then got bored so he came back over and we watched a couple movies. Well tried too. We were both so damn tired we kept falling asleep. But he stay quite late last night considering he had to work this morning. Hes gonna be so damn tired tonight. But yea it was a really good weekend. No else ever asks me to do n e thing besides him these days and if they do its really last minute.
Oh but im so worried about this class im in. I HAVE to pass it and there are so many people in there now that dropped out previously. Im trying to think how i can work out my shit so I can make time to study like a monster for this class. Even if its passing with a c ill take it. I just NEED TO pass. I dont wanna wish my life away but I cant wait till May when its over and i get a week off work! I cant fuckin wait!! Then it will be getting warm out and there will actually be shit to do! And me and beck are getting tattooed!! Its gonna be great! Well I gotta go wash this blue shit off my face! LOL and start getting ready for another hellish night of work! yay :( bye yall

Gross... its sunday!!

Sun, 22 Jan 2006 17:43:45 GMT

I hate sundays... they make me so sad.... tomarrow starts another hellish week. I dont want it!!!!!!! :( Makes me depressed. And I start my class on Friday and gotta pay 200 dollars for the fuckin book. I guess. I cant wait till May gets here. 3 full fuckin months of shit till May. And then I gotta wait till the end of May till a week off. But then its summer time and ill make sure every weekend is a blast!!
Last night I went with Becky, Erica, and Eric to see Oil Can Harry in Belgium. It was an alright time I guess. Would have been more fun if there were more people we knew there. And it was so fuckin hot in there and tons of people were smoking. So the last hour I sat outside. Talked to zach on the phone for a while. So it was not bad. I shoulda just did something with him cuz I was gonna but yea things changed. And this chick from work was suppose to come to Oil Can too which is another reason I went,but she never showed up. But shes pregaent so who knows how she was feeling. I should go to the Y today, but im feeling quite lazy. But it is sunday. Quite a lazy day. I dunno what im gonna end up doing today. Prolly nothing like a usual sunday. If nothing comes up I might see if zach wants to go to a movie or something. Cuz otherwise I wont get to see him till wed night again. And he cant come over thurdays n e more cuz I gotta get up at 6 for class. GROSS!! Guess I just gotta deal with the shit. Meh well im gonna go be lazy for a while. Or clean maybe. Check yall later...

Another day...

Tue, 17 Jan 2006 18:47:33 GMT

So here I am... lol sitting in my robe till I gotta get dressed for work. We went to the Y this morning. Its sick cuz a little boy died there the other day from drowning. Super sad!
Its only Tuesday... sick... sick of work!! And sick of being around certain people... no names mentioned... Terri called and i forgot I had a vm till like 12 and I was on the phone so I didnt listen to it till almost one and SORRY LESLIE... but i missed ur call... I wanna hang out with u guys super bad!! mmmmm i just ate some tasty ass chili... yum... just thought yall should know... I DONT WANNA WORK! Next friday I start that sick class... ewww and i gotta pull the money outta my ass after i get paid friday. My books for one class are over 200 dollars I guess and i get to pay my car payment at the same time... super sick! I want a mini ipod really bad too!! Thats me new obsession cuz everyone has em at the gym... pisses me right off and I want to get a digital camera b4 summer! Why do I have to want expensive shit... eww Well Im gone...

Eww sick its sunday already!! :(

Mon, 16 Jan 2006 00:49:09 GMT

Yep yep sundays make me sad. Nothing to do and back to hellish work tomarrow:( Its just a depressing day. And now i dont get to see Zach till wed night after work. This weekend was kinda lame, but I would rather do nothing then be stuck at work. So i guess I should not complain too much. I was gonna go to the Y today, but instead slept in and went to West Bend with mom and then went to gmas house for a while. Now im just bopping around here. Yesterday was pretty good day too. Dont feel like saying everything i did tho. I dont wanna wish my life away, but i cant wait till may when we start getting days off.
Its really gross cuz I start that class in less than 2 weeks. Not looking forward to going to that at all, but I cant wait till its done. Which is another reason why I can't wait till may. I can't wait to be 21 so I cant go out more. I cant fuckin wait.
Right now im waiting for some tasty ass dairy queen. Ill work that off tomarrow at the Y. But I dont feel like sitting here n e more... so bye

Word Yo!!

Fri, 13 Jan 2006 05:27:44 GMT

Well here I am... sitting at home.. got home from work a little while ago. Munchin on some country mix... peanuts, raisins, and m&ms!! Love it! I would of had Zach over tonight but moms not feeling good i guess and i wanna get up to go to the Y n e way... I took today off cuz Zach slept over and i wanted to sleep in for a day. It was nice but I felt kinda gross not going. Cowlike. which i am so yea.... for sure going tomarrow! Even tho im sure ill talk to his ass tonight forever. I think im gonna set me phone for 8:30 or 9 to wake my ass to get there b4 10! Woot woot for the Y!
Oh so i had to work with this creep ass lady tonight!! Shes so fuckin weird!! And her fuckin eyes bug out all the fuckin time! Its gross!! She talks and smiles to herself!! Super odd!! She talks nice to me but once n e one comes around she stops until there completely gone! Its creep ass for sure!
I was gonna sign up maybe to work on sunday but there is no work on sunday!! Woot woot for the weekend off!! I wish i could afford a pink ipod for going to the y but i think im just gonna stick to fuckin with the mp3 for now. Better than nothing i suppose. Well actually i dont even have one of my own of those... i use backs so i need to get one.. but there waaaaaaaaay cheaper to buy so ill settle for now. But it would be sweet if i could find a pink one!! woot woot for pink!!
N e way im sooooo glad its friday tomarrow!! This week has been long yet went fast. I dunno its always kinda seems that way i guess. Well im sick of writing in here so yea... im out yall!!

ohhhh so sore!!

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 19:06:48 GMT

Im so sore right now... me and becky joined the Y sunday and we went the last 2 days for like a hour and a half. And now i gotta go to work in a hour. Makes me feel so good tho. Were gonna try for sure to go 3 days a week but gonna make if more. This week im sure we will end up going 4 or 5. I just wanna feel more comfortable in the summer instead of always making sure my fat grossness is covered all the time. Woot Woot for the Y!!!
But i really dont wanna work tonight!! Im sick of that hole like really bad lately.
I finally get to see zach tomarrow night.... feels like forever!! But he was here saturday night so it really has not been that long.. just really feels like it. Especially cuz i usually do something with him sundays but now hes gonna work mondays so hes gonna get to bed semi early. :( Ewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww work makes me ill!! And my major worry is gone!!!!!!!!!! WOOT WOOT!! But i dont feel like sitting here n e more so im off.... talk to yall later! ta ta

Took from Leslie yet again....

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 18:01:29 GMT

LAYER ONE: ON THE OUTSIDE
Name: Jenny
Birthday: June 10th
Birth place: Port Washington, WI
Eye Color: brown
Hair Color: blonde
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Gemini

LAYER TWO: ON THE INSIDE
Your heritage: german a little dutch... who knows what else
What Shoes Did You Wear Today: i didnt wear n e yet but i will be wearing my nasty tennies to work
Your weakness: compliments from the opposite.... never happened EVER... till now...
Your fears: dying.
Your perfect pizza: cheese
Goal you'd like to achieve:get the motiveation to lose weight

LAYER THREE: YESTERDAY, TODAY, TOMORROW:
Your most overused phrase: chode
Your thoughts first waking up: i could lay in bed forever
Your best physical feature? lol i dont have ne there all bad
Your bedtime: usually between 2 and 4

LAYER FOUR: YOUR PICK:
Pepsi or Coke: pepsi
McDonald's or Burger King: if i had to pick... burger king
Single or group dates: single i guess
Adidas or Nike: adidas
Lipton Tea or Nestea: i dont mind both of them
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: BOTH i like coffee more tho i think

LAYER FIVE: DO YOU?
Smoke: i have drinking
Cuss: all the time
Take a shower: ummmm yes... actually its about that time
Have a crush(es): i have my man
Think you've been in love: i think i am :)
Like(d) high school: by some i guess...i was too quiet and shy to get liked by more tho.
Want to get married: someday
Get motion sickness: sometimes
Get along with your parents: most of the time
Like thunderstorms: ummm sometimes

LAYER SIX: IN THE PAST MONTH
Drank alcohol: yes
Gone on a date: yes
Gone to the mall: yes
Been on stage: no
Eaten Sushi: no
Been dumped: no
Gone skinny dippin: no
Dyed your hair: no

LAYER SEVEN: HAVE YOU EVER
Played a game that required removal of clothing: no
Gotten beaten up: no
Changed who you were to fit in: not really

LAYER EIGHT: GETTING OLDER
Age you hope to be married: late 20's early 30's
Numbers of Children: maybe 1 or 2... i dunno tho
Describe your dream wedding: lots of roses.... everyone i love there... with a kick ass reception... lots of getting down ...i dunno theres alot more i guess

LAYER NINE: IN A GAL/GUY
Best eye color?:meh i dunno im not a big eye person
Best hair color?: not a deal
Short or long hair: short
Height: tall
Best first date location: meh whatever

LAYER TEN: IN THE NUMBERS
Number of people i can trust: hmmm some
Number of piercings: 11
Number of tattoos: 1
Number of times been on T.V.: 0
Number of times my name has appeared in the Newspaper?: dunno
Number of scars on my body: a few
Number of things in my past that I regret: there are some

Stole from Leslie... again!!

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 17:49:40 GMT

.What did you do in 2005 that you'd never done before?
hmmmmm prolly alot of things... i just cant think... I started dating an awesome guy... never did that b4

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
I dont make em n e more... but there always to lose my fatness :( never works..

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
meh theres a few
4. Did anyone close to you die?
not really close... but there were some that did

5. What countries did you visit?
mexico

6. What would you like to have in 2006 that you lacked in 2005?
a better attitude towards things... more motivation....

7. What date from 2005 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
hmmm not sure

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
back in the day I used to be super shy... slowly not there at all really n e more.

9. What was your biggest failure?
staying fat yet again

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
meh just normal shit that I remember.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
prolly my cell phone even tho i dropped the fucker in the toliet.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
ummm lots

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
lol i dunno

14. Where did most of your money go?
bills and i spent alot on my family for christmas this year

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
going to mexico was amazing and hanging out and having good times

16. What song will always remind you of 2005?
usually the ghetto songs that they play alot in the summer

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? meh a little of both i think
ii. thinner or fatter? bout the same... i always wanna be thinner
iii. richer or poorer? richer i guess cuz im not at fuckin walmart

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
hmmmm done more with my kewl friends

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
complaining and worrying.... i do waaaaaaaaay too much of both of them
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
with my kick ass family

21. Did you fall in love in 2005?
ummm i think so :)

22. How many one night stands?
zero
23. What was your favourite TV programme?
miami ink ... i love lots of shows tho

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't this time last year?
dont think so

25. What was the best book you read?
one of my nicholas sparks books

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
hmm not sure... i listen to a little everything like i pretty much always have... not stuck on a certain thing

27. What did you want and get?
hmmmmm not sure

28. What did you want and not get?
prolly lots of things

29. What was your favourite film of the year?
ummmmmm i saw lots... i dont know

30. What did you do on your birthday and how old were you?
20, went bowling with a couple peeps and had a fire on the beach.... my pimp cousin shane was here... its was good!

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I dont know... id have to think and that hurts right now lol

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2005?
I dunno.. i wear what i want... comfy some days and a little nicer others.

33. What kept you sane?
ha sane.... some of my friends... my family

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i have no idea... i dont think im really into celebrity nons cuz its so fake n e way

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
i dunno there are some....

36. Who did you miss?
i always miss kathy and shane and mitch

37. Who was the best new person you met?
not sure i met alot of people

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2005:
meh

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
dunno

meh...

Wed, 04 Jan 2006 18:52:54 GMT

Well its 3 more days of hellish work. I dunno im just a lazy bitch lately. I think its cuz ive had alot of shit on my mind lately. Worrying about ALOT of things! I dont think n e one wants to the hear the nonsense so ill just so ALOT of shit. But I am getting my bc pills changed cuz ive been have womenly problems associated with that nonsense. Which is one of my worrying pieces of nonsense. And then Ive been saying how i wanna get back on the working out stick but still have not cuz all this shit is taking alot outta me. I will tho... very soon... im trying to change my eatting ways right now tho. But n e ways.....
Im super pumped cuz Jaime, Greg, and I are hanging out on sunday. I have not done n e thing with them in FOREVER!! I think I last did something with Jaime in the beginning of summer and Greg I dont even remember.
I was gonna sign up for overtime this weekend but fuck that ill work next sunday. Hopefully cuz i need the money. I gotta get these bills outta my hair. Theres another worry for ya. Money drives me nuts!
Well yesterday Niki called into work yet again cuz shes sick I guess. But thats the 3rd time shes called in since she started. All ive done is go home early one night. Shes a tard... and I think its funny cuz she wont get paid for monday or yesterday cuz u had to work yesterday to get mondays holiday pay! Whatev... not my prob. She being a retard about more than just that. Even her family is starting to see shes a hoe train. Ha! I laugh!
Well I guess ill be on my marry way... I gotta start getting ready for the hole of work in a little while. ta ta

People suck!!

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 22:33:56 GMT

Im fuckin pissed off!!! What happened to all the caring friends I had???????????? No one gives a shit n e more! NO ONE!! Its really frustrating and depressing!! :( It sucks really bad feeling like I have almost no one. I fuckin hate it!! I think I should move and get outta here and find new friends who give a shit. Im just so sick of it! Well fuck it!! Im just really fuckin crabby right now!!!!!!!!!

Happy New Year!!

Mon, 02 Jan 2006 02:29:40 GMT

Well I got so fucked up last night it unreal. And it was pretty much alone. I was with Becky and we planned on going to randys and the davids but yeaaaaaaaaaaaa I got no where cuz I was trashed by 10 for sure... maybe even earlier. I felt so fuckin shitty today. I woke up and puked and then puked again... then ate a piece of toast and puked that up and then tried to eat again a bit later and puked that up. My mom kept telling me to try and eat. But yea I give that up till like 5 tonight. Now my foods actually staying down. Me and zach are going to see the ringer in a little bit. Starts in less than a hour. I was not gonna go but im feeling better kinda and im gonna see if getting outta the house helps a bit.
Im so happy I have tomarrow off yet. I hate work tho. And I gotta go pay my school shit tomarrow so thats always fun fun fun!!!
But yea... im gone for now!
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!! woot woot!!

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 17:42:22 GMT

Ahhh I cant wait till this week is over! Im sick of working! I wish we could get breaks from work like school! Seriously people would like there jobs more and have better attitudes.... lol well i know i would! So I gotta pull 362 dollars outta my ass for my class next semester. I got it but does not leave a whole lot for me since I have NOTHING saved. I gotta start working on that soon after I get some of this shit paid... i really should pick up over time after this weekend too! One extra sunday makes the check over 100 more. But whatev... dont wanna worry about that shit now.
I have alot of shit i wanna work on after this next week for the new year. Heres me list so far
- lose weight by my birthday ( ill start next week... jan.3)
- start and savings account and actually get money saved
- get my classes done so i can get shit rolling for school and get in the program shit
- get all my shit paid off
- not spend pointless money and gay retarded shit (but i guess u gotta have that now and then)

I dunno Im sure theres more but yea I have shit I need to work on. Im also scared right now about something so we will see where that takes me.
N e way... i still dunno what im doing for new years... me and zach were gonna do something but doing shit with one other person on new years can be pretty gay. Nikis uncle is having a party down the street and those are always fun and he always has lots of achohol so I dunno... those are pretty much what I was left with cuz no one else asks me to do n e thing these days...
OH so zach bought me so much stuff for x-mas.. I almost sharted... lol not really... heres goes
-a cute dvd player for my room
- seasons 1,2, and 3 of ER
- paris hilton, just me purfume ( i love that shit!)
- JLO purfume (also love that shit!!)
- and the dvd message in a bottle cuz I love nicholas sparks shit!
So yea he got me alot of shit... I mean I knew he was buying me shit but I did not think that much.
I DONT WANNA WORK TONIGHT OR TOMARROW!!!!! I just wanna be done with school so I can have a normal job with 1st shift hours... maybe ... lol I like second shift cuz im not a morning person and all but I hate getting home at almost 11... Id like to be first shift in the summer and get home to enjoy the rest of the day. Not at times tho... I want a real job first.
Ohhhh how I love coffee!!! Makes me large tummy do a dance of happiness!!
Well enuff of my nons I gotta go shower and get ready soon so ta ta yall!!

Christmas eve... woot woot!!

Sat, 24 Dec 2005 23:31:45 GMT

So last night we had Koopman christmas for my dads side and yep... i knew it.... drama!! Can't have christmas without a little drama for ur mama!! Other than the drama it was kewl. I felt bad tho cuz Matts gf was there and i didnt know she was gonna be there and she bought me and becky shit but we didnt know otherwise I would have got her something. Shes super nice tho.
Right now im at gmas for moms side but were waiting for gary to get home from work.... were all super hungery so within the next hour were hoping he gets home! Starving!! But not literally obviously!
Tomarrow morning its x-mas with the rents and thats always a good time. Steven might come over later in the day. I dunno what else will go on. Me and zach gotta exchange gifts yet too. Im thinkin monday maybe and me and niki gotta too but i still didnt get her n e thing cuz everytime i try to go get it the shit i wanna get her is all gone. bitches!! This 4 day weekend is gonna go too damn fast. I hate that! Pisses me right off! And once these holidays are over there will be no breaks from work for a long ass time. Sucks bad!! And then class starts! Gonna suck the chode till summer then! Fridays are gonna suck till summer cuz ill have class from 8 to 1 and then gotta come home quick change and go to work. FUN!!! Oh well at least ill get that fuckin class done!
Well im gonna go and wait to fuckin eat!! Merry Christmas all!

EWWWWWWWWWW

Tue, 20 Dec 2005 03:40:08 GMT

Gross I came home from work tonight cuz i have a sick ass bladder infection. I felt so gross and nasty and it hurt so bad i could not stand the pain. And it takes alot for me to leave work. I mean ALOT. Ive felt like some pretty serious shit b4. But I could not even stand the pain at all. Its starting to feel a tad better cuz i came home took an antibotic and advil and drank like 4 huge glasses of liquids. Its no fun! :(

woot woot

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 18:49:25 GMT

Well I found out today I got into a class i really really needed. Its gonna be hard but I just need to get it done and over with. And then ill take my last gen ed class in summer online and then i hope to soon be in the program and get this shit rolling!!! I cant fuckin wait to get school done and get a real job. woot woot! Its gonna be a while yet but now things are actually starting to look up for me school wise! Even tho fridays are gonna be busy till may when its done. Got class from 8-11 then lab from 11-1 and then gotta get home and go to work by 2:30. But at least its only one day a week and I can concentrate on getting good grades in that class. WOOT WOOT!!!

Weekends Over :(

Mon, 19 Dec 2005 03:48:31 GMT

So this was a pretty good weekend I would have to say. Friday night Zach came over and we watched a movie and chilled since i got home from work at 11 there was not much else to do. Then saturday I got up and went by Dawn and she trimmed my mop for me. Then me and niki bopped around christmas shopping for a while and went to dinner at Chilis... yum... and she was actually normal which was nice. Then me and her came back here and wrapped gifts and shit. My parents spent the night by dave and dawn so that was nice. Then Zach came over later and me niki becky and zach watched a couple movies and chilled. It was nice. Zach stayed over and that was even nicer. Especially in the morning ;) Then today after Zach went home I showered and me and niki went to Sheb again to get some painting shit for me and another gift for my dad. Im almost done shopping!!!!! Then I came home... finished my angel I was painting for my moms aunt for christmas and chilled with the rents... and here I am now! It was a nice weekend. Now 4 days of work and then 4 off!! WOOT WOOT!
Well me and Beck decided that were gonna go get our tattoos together on the morning of my b-day. Cuz we figure we can have the money by then and we both wanna lose weight by then so it can be a goal for us. Im so excited!! Were not sure what were gonna get yet! We have like 5 months or whatever it is. But yea... its gonna be sweet!!
I cant believe that christmas is next weekend!! Time goes so fast and i hate it!! Seriously it just sucks so bad... depressing too. I dont wanna get old. I just wanna turn 21 and stay 21 forever! Yep good plan!
Oh and i wish my hair grew like super fast... cuz i want it to be long and then i wanna get it permed again. Im thinkin im gonna let it grow tho until like summerish and then get the perm again. Ill just be a monster till summer i guess lol ... trying to lose my fat and trying to grow my hair. Plan for the next 5 months. And i know that if i try really hard I could lose a good amount of my flab!
Ok so now im bored... im tired but i dont wanna go to bed yet... I dont feel like watching tv ... and no ones one to chit chat with soooooooooooo i dunno what to do. I cant order n e more gifts off the internet cuz they wont get here in time. Hmmmmmm what to do what to do!?!?!?
Yep ill download music and find something to do.
OH so i had this sick dream the other night that i was preg!!! Yea... it was so real... it creeped me out hardcore!! Just thought I would let ya know that!
Well enuff of writing the pointless nonsense i guess.. ta ta for now!

Oh great... me and thinking.... dont mix well

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 17:08:41 GMT

So yea... I have been thinking alot about shit lately. I dunno just a bundle of shit. Like how my friends situation has been lately. Id have to say pretty shitty. I dont know I have not even been hanging out with niki hardly at all lately. I mean we drive to work together and take breaks together sometimes but lately it just not the same... at all. She makes a huge deal that i have a bf now. Big fuckin deal. Saying thats why we dont hang out. Well last week I think he came over once. She dont fucking ask me to do shit she just assumes im doing something else like a tard ass. And then she always throws it in my face that I never tell her n e thing... well she never tells me shit... so the feeling is mutual. I dunno its like she hates to see me a little happy. But when she sits there and talks about her boy shit im suppose to give to shits. I dont know it just sucks cuz i always knew that i could talk to her about shit but now it just sucks cuz I feel like I have no one. Well I guess not no one, but she used to be the easiest person to get an opinion from and to just tell shit. I guess zach is the only one now. I mean yeah thats great, but I need my fucking friends. Ive always been a huge loser tho so I dont know why its bothering me so much now. Well at least Jesse said she wants to hang out more so thats cool. Prolly wont be after the new year. But whatev. Thats not too far away from now n e way.
Then ive been thinking about fixing myself after the holidays are over. I just really need to do something for myself. I dunno everyone is prolly sick of hearing from me and never seeing me look decent or change. I wanna lose some weight like really really bad. And I know if I start soon... after the holidays... I could have some decent amound off b4 summer rolls around. And I really want another tattoo but I told myself that I will not allow myself to get another one till some weight is off. Me and Becky both wanna lose weight and then go together. She also wants her belly button pierced. I dont think id get that done even if i was a stick. Just not a piercing that interests me I guess. Me and Jesse were talking about piercings and she wants her chin (whatever thats called again) pierced and I told her I knew where avant garde was since me terry and leslie went that one time and she asked if i would take her and then i could get something. But really I dont think there is n e thing else I want pierced. I dont want n e more face so what else is there.
But yea I cant believe that x-mas is next weekend already! Thats crazy shit. We have fucking christmas with my dads side on next week friday. Super weird. I still did not get my cousins gift done. oops... ill have to do that this weekend sometime. I cant wait till this week is over and then I work 3 4-day weeks. Which will rock some serious socks!! I wish it was like back in the high school days where we got off a week and a half! That was nice.
Oh and i also dont wanna drive to work in this shitty ass snow. Sucks some serious ass but I guess we dont have to drive all that far but the fuckers never plow! And all we have is one big back road to take. Well I guess yall cant take much more of my bitchin and moaning for the day. Till next time....

Take my uterus out!!!!!!!

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 06:00:42 GMT

Here I am... its me... right here...
My uterus is fuckin killing me. I suffered through work all night. But at least I got to work with Jesse so that was nice. If i had to work with an annoying ass I would have freaked the fuck out. I think were gonna hang out sometime... cuz she said she thinks we should sometime outta work. So that would be cool since no one else calls me these days. Gotta love that shit!! :( Whatever
Im really fuckin getting tired but im waiting for my cell to charge so i can talk to Zach for a while b4 i sleep. Gonna take my last pain pill so i can fuckin sleep and shit.
Ewww sick i feel so gross tonight... cuz of my periodism.. I hate it!!
I hate the way I feel about myself everyday tho. Which is why I think im joining curves after the holidays is over. My mom told me I need to start doing shit for myself and quit worrying about having someone with me or what others think or say and im gonna do just that! Theres a tanning place right there too so if i wanted to do that i could. Rocks my socks!
Well im sick of typing in this shit... till next time all....

shitty day... surprise surprise!!

Sun, 11 Dec 2005 01:30:01 GMT

So today was pretty good till I got home.... we went shopping in oshkosh and fondulac... it was alright... i did not really find n e thing tho. Well then i got home and talked to zach and we were gonna go to a movie but then shit got fucked in the ass and then i just told him to fuckin go out with friends tonight. So then i was gonna go by niki and i call her ass and shes being a fuck tard... actually a huge bitch to be exact ... so who knows i might not be doing n e thing tonight.... go fuckin figure. I guess its kinda my own fault since im lame and I COULD OF went to a movie but felt really irratated b4 and did not wanna deal with n e thing. I dunno... lately... i just dont know. And niki tried giving me the guilt trip like its my fault that she does nothing now cuz i have a bf. Who says i do n e thing either... i just dont wanna deal with her shit lately. No one calls me to do shit either so whatever. She has fuckin other friends she could call. So whatever. fuckin lame bitch sometimes.
But yea n e way i hope its nice tomarrow cuz then i think i might go shopping and get the nuts for the cookies im gonna make tomarrow. I cant believe that its only 2 weeks till christmas already. Came so fuckin fast I cant even take it. I mean i have christmas with my dads side in less than 2 weeks. CRAZY SHIT! I dont have n e one done either. I dont like going b4 work either. Just sucks!
Well im outta here... im pretty pissy at the moment. Bye